Having fights with mom,should i go abroad and study?

I dunno where to start from iam currently very stressed,my mom doesnt talk properly with me keeps me telling same thing to do something aagain and again i get annoyed and angry,and my dad passed away 6 monrhs ago, 2 years ago coz of too much fights mom left dad and took me with her, i actually decided to go with her, my dad was awell seettled person in a city he was a builder and mom separating took me to her town hich kinda ruined my ife, my dad cared for me very much, but if i showed care for him then mom told me you like money, go to him i dont want you, but i couldnt coz i had fear she might do something to herself,nd she didnt even let me talk to dad, and dad started to think i ddnt care for him,my mom filed a courtcase on dad, for the welfare or whatever it was,but my dad didnt show up anytime,nd jus 6 months ago he passed away with brain hamorage i couldnt even tlk to him or see hi in his last moments,jd now afte everything over, my mom anniys me with rude behavior,i ****** leaved everything for her, i would hav had great life f i was with dad,i dunno how nd what to say but cant bare this,y moms bbeing so rude to me